Friday, June 29, 2012

Sick and tired of being sick and tired

I am tired. I am sick. I hurt. I have trouble concetrating. I feel angry. I am losing weight. I have no appetite. I am sad. I feel like doing dishes or laundry is a over whelming task. I feel like walking up the stairs is exhausting. I feel like a bad mother to my beautiful daughter because I simply can't play a lot of days. I have sleep disturbances. I never want to do anything. I have mood swings. I feel like a bad wife. I have no sex drive. I feel confused. I miss the feeling of excitement. I am tired of crying. I miss enjoying time with my friends and family. I need answers. After extensive amounts of blood work, numerous doctors, thousands of dollars in medical bills, an endoscopy and colonoscopy I still have no answers. So, my next step after reading hundreds of posts from women just like me is getting my Mirena removed. It CANNOT be coincidence that we are all suffering the same symptoms! It is so frustrating because our doctors keep turning us away saying we are crazy or that the Mirena is very safe and can't cause these symptoms. Well, I would like to say I think THEY are crazy for believing that such a new drug can't possibly be causing women to feel like they are literally dying! There is not a day that goes by that I don't wonder if I have cancer or if I am slowly being poisoned because that is just how badly I feel. After doing a lot of research I have read that women who have the Mirena or who have recently had the Mirena removed are being tested for Silicone poisoning and they are finding horribly high levels of silicone in their blood. Which, in case you didn't know.... the Mirena is encased in silicone. Coincidence.... I think NOT!